On this journey, I have become more secure with myself, I've become closer with the people I care about, and I completely healed from all the nonsense I put myself through in 2021. I didn't just heal from the events themselves, I made huge headway in healing the trauma those events did to my mind.
This doesn't mean I'm devoid of any triggers, and my life is a happy go lucky, triggerless, and wound-free existence. No no. I still get triggered, I still react to some things disproportionately here and there, and I still beat myself up sometimes. It just doesn't last as long, and I don't overthink it for the same amount of time that maybe I did 3 months ago. Validating my thoughts, emotions, and feelings and accepting their existence was a gamechanger in how I think about things, and how I move forward when I have a hurtful experience.
Here are 3 things that solo travel taught me about triggers:
1) It's okay to run from them.
Just don't ignore them. And yes, there's a difference. If you are in a triggering situation, the best thing you can do is leave that situation, even if only temporarily to collect your thoughts and gain more perspective on things. But don't ignore the thoughts and feelings you're having in regards to the situation. Work through them, validate them, process them. Contrary to very popular, and unhealthy beliefs, you don't actually need to traumatize yourself by staying in that situation in order to prove yourself to be a strong person. The strongest thing you can do is put your ego aside, show yourself some love, and get as far away as possible so you can start to heal. Knowing when to remove yourself is the greatest show of self-love.
2) Your triggers WILL show up when you travel.
No matter how far you go, you will get triggered. And it's okay. There's many things your triggers will teach you. We will talk more about that in number 3. There is no escaping the inevitability of your triggers showing up. Actually, they will show up especially when you travel because you don't really have much distracting you from acknowledging that you've been triggered and old wounds are opening up. You will realize just how much time you spent before, pretending something didn't bother you when you were really just suppressing it. When you travel solo, you will be forced to deal with the same things you dealt with at home, but now you have the time and space to work through it.
3) What can your triggers teach you?
When you're faced with a trigger when traveling solo, it brings the utmost clarity on so many things. It brings clarity on exactly what about that person/place/thing triggered you. It brings clarity on the root of your emotions and the belief system that has been activated. This means that you gain clarity on what area you need to work on, and the wounds that still affect your belief systems, relationships, etc. I'm going to write a whole other blog post on this, but I had a huge trigger on the road that activated the belief system that I'm not good enough to be chosen. It became crystal clear what still needs work so I can start making conscious decisions that are choosing me and start focusing more on me. I gained so much clarity on what I need. Because that's what emotions are for...to communicate to you a need you have.
Much love,
Annie
xoxo